Retreats - Testimonials

Retreat: retreat from 01 to 12 June 2022

My experience in the Meditation and Silence Retreat in the Ashram City of the Angels was very striking. I left there with the feeling that much of what I experienced during those intense days of internal diving will continue to be assimilated little by little for a long time. I used to say that the retreat “twisted” me, when almost everything was silent around me, I find myself with the noises in my mind, most of time unbearable, when they stop, the feeling of peace was intense, sublime, loving, in such a way that I felt grateful for everything, for my trajectory, for my successes, failures and for being there in that sanga. Today I feel a little bit braver in the face of what life offers and with the absolute sure that I’m still a child with a long way to go in search of the “I Am”.

Retreat: retreat from 01 to 12 July 2022

On the third day I saw no point in being there… Many sessions were dispersed by the multiple thoughts that I didn't even realize that I had left my purpose… the constancy in turning my attention to the breath left me exhausted.
That's when on the night on the third day in the video it was revealed that my life was sustained by SUFFERING. It was an addiction!! ????
That made sense to me. And something changed in me...
I feel like I got stronger… that “sufferer” in a way was no longer going to walk in so much pain because she knew it was an addiction, the feeling was not true, was a circle that kept me trapped.
I thought the next sessions would flow better...
On the sixth day, right after the third session, I decided to leave... because I only slept. My mind wouldn't let up. I was exhausted ????

It was a day that I took a shower after breakfast rs.
And decided it was my last session.
And it moves me until now because it was the only session in which my body got so hot… so hot… I felt a bit scared.
But between breathing and a space… I felt that I arrived in a distant silence.... I wasn't there!!!
I only realized when I came back... conscious. Maybe it lasted seconds.... I don't know!! But I came back happy!! In peace…
I started to see things in a different way… I don’t know
Before that I believed myself to be a Seeker of well-being... And when at night I saw the audio of the self-enquiry... I thought.... I want this!!
The COLLAPSE of all these beliefs in which I got lost and I don’t even know what else to believe or at least give me the basis for construction!!
I may just want the well-being today… but I was certainly a Seeker of Truth!!
Then my mind went crazy... But who am I?!?!
In the sixth session when I took the shower and sat in the front, I thought: - I'm going to stay together with THE GOODS… near Amma, from that other resident who strengthened me a lot to see them immobile and I couldn't follow their breath… it was a wonderful determination. Because until then I ended up going to the bottom and sleeping more than meditating.
From that session on, I didn't nap once.
But it was the only session ????
The rest was fight.
In the 8* day I decided to go away… ????
But the fact that it was almost over made me have patience...
A LITTLE LEFT... if you leave, you'll feel frustrated... (My mind spoke)
My sessions were like at the beginning... when I realized I was in thoughts since I was 8 years old... many stories remembered.
5.9 years old, imagine how much I have to remember?! ????
But when I realized ... I cut!!
But a deep gratitude awakened in me.
I wasn't going to end up crazy!! ????????
It's not just me!!
I just have to remain in meditation… because it calms my anxiety!!
I can eliminate both clonazepam and citalopram... (I wasn't using it anyway) but I was afraid of a relapse.
* I forgot to say that when I went to the session it was the first time I put my face on the floor... I prayed to God!! Since then I started doing it always!!

Retreat: retreat from 01 to 12 July 2022

I went to the retreat with the intention of finding relief from the sensations I had been feeling, diagnosed with panic disorder and depression.
Since the first day, I felt peace and courage to face my own mind without anesthetics. It was a revealing experience, unsettling at first, tranquilizer at the end, but for sure the biggest and the best experience of life. Where I could feel that I could take back control of my own life, as long as I used the resources, silence, breathe consciously, delve into my questions. I leave renewed and with a path to follow. It is as if we leave the world and get in touch with the truth, which is revealed as we remain calm and resilient to practice. At the end of everything, a certainty, there is a path and it starts from within, in silence. Grateful to this place, to these people who put themselves at the service and to this experience that I intend to repeat many times.

Retreat: retreat from 1 to 12 August 2022

How to put in words the transformation I went through on this retreat? Even with so much self-knowledge and practice of the presence state for more than four years, I realized in this retreat all the restlessness in my mind, my identifications with the unreal.
There was a lot of cleaning work, both emotionally and in dreams. I gained a lot of strength and discipline, as well as greater maturity. I was able to remove identification with thoughts and free myself from old beliefs. And I accessed a deep silence that helped me to know myself better and surrender to the Eternal Now. Gratitude.